I purchased a book, Getting to Maybe by Westley, Zimmerman and Patton, that got my attention with a quote in the front of the book. The quote indicated that I NEED to read this wonderful book, which is all about engaging in change and transformation, and making the impossible happen personally, socially, community-wide, or world-wide.

The quote is from another book, A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson, and it shook up my world of invisibility:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?…Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do…It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates other.

I am guilty of routinely shrinking away from my power, brilliance and fabulosity (yes, I made up that word!). I have this deep sense that I can make a significant contribution to the world. I won’t even have to try hard - I just need to do it, live it, and be it (”it” being my power, brilliance, and fabulosity). Stop resisting. Stop getting in my own way. Just embrace it and allow it. It’s so simple.

Yet, as I continue to grapple with my own recovery from invisibility, I struggle to claim my essence, my purpose, my life. What I am absolutely certain of is this: a deep level of satisfaction and fulfillment will emerge as I embrace WHO I AM and WHAT I AM ALL ABOUT, as I claim and live my power, brilliance, and fabulosity.

What will you do to claim your power? What will you do to claim your brilliance? What will you do to claim your fabulosity?

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• Getting to Maybe by Westley, Zimmerman, and Patton
• youPlus - an incredible new company that will coach you to live your power, brilliance, and fabulosity!*

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I came across a wonderful article from The Simple Dollar blog about money deception. The author paints a clear portrait of what it is to lie to yourself about money (although his lies centered around money, you could easily substitute money with many other things, such as relationships, health, food, exercise, career, alcohol, etc.).

As he weaves together his own experience with money deception, he offers tangible advice for bringing the lies to the surface and making your relationship with money more visible. Take a look at his article, “Overcoming a Habit of Lying to Yourself About Money,” and check out the rest of his blog. I also encourage you to subscribe.

I also recommend reading Conscious Finance by Rick Kahler and Kathleen Fox. It’s an insightful and practical guide for becoming more aware of your unconscious money beliefs and breaking the habits that keep you unconscious. Enjoy!

I’m long overdue with a new article for Invisible Lives…and today I was inspired by an article I read on another website - The Power of Being Yourself on Urban Monk. I hope you’ll check out the article and really take it in. It’s well written and insightful. Simply put, the article asserts that hiding from ourselves and from others is riskier than really embracing our true selves.

So, what’s the risk in hiding? It sounds so safe, doesn’t it? Well, there is an array of risks that outshines the benefits. While the details differ from person to person, here are a few to get you thinking about it:

• When you hide, you imprison yourself within the walls of fear. You’ve lost your true freedom.

• When you hide, you create internal conflict, that can lead to discomfort and disease (think dis-ease).

• When you hide, you are giving control over to your inner critic, your saboteur, your gremlin - that inner voice that usually stems from childhood experiences of survival and is nurtured by the needy child within us who’s trying desperately to cope with the strains of adulthood. What worked to protect the child was probably an elaborate and brilliant set of defenses that no longer works in adulthood. Think about that one for a while.

• When you hide, you cheat others from getting to know you and to experience the real you.

There’s so much more to say. So, from your perspective, what are some other risks of hiding?

Check out the article, subscribe to Urban Monk, or check out the author’s own website Spiritual Blog.

I came across an article on a site called Queercents that caught my eye: Buying Visibility, One Quarter at a Time. I always get excited when I see others using the words “visibility” and “invisibility.”

The author writes about being visible with her “queerness,” in spite of what many people might feel is a threatening situation (or at least uncomfortable). Take a look.

Write a Comment and share what you do to embrace your visibility or describe where your visibility is challenged.

I recently immersed myself in a book, You Are What You Say, by Matthew Budd, M.D., that describes the impact of language on our bodies, our minds, our emotions, and our health. I was struck by how often the author described issues related to invisibility, and I soaked up his message about how we can transform illness into wellness.

Dr. Budd describes what he calls The Ten Linguistic Viruses. Eight of the ten are listed below, along with questions that might spark how each plays a role in your life.

Eight of the Ten Linguistic Viruses:

1. Not making requests. How often do you really want or need something from someone else, but you avoid making the request?
2. Living with uncommunicated expectations. How often do you hold back expressing your expectations of others?
3. Making unclear requests. How often do you make a request that ends up creating confusion or conflict?
4. Not observing the mood of requesting. How often do others experience your requests as demands or as begging?
5. Promising even when you aren’t clear what was requested. How often do you make a commitment, but you have a nagging feeling or come to discover that you did not ask some key questions.
6. Not declining requests. How often do you feel resentful or kick yourself for not saying “no” to what others request?
7. Breaking promises without taking care: undermining trust. How often do you agree to something, but back out, disappear from sight, or avoid doing it?
8. Treating [your] assessments [or assumptions] as the truth or…facts. How often do you assume that you are absolutely, positively right about an assumption you’ve made, but you don’t check it out from other perspectives?

As a professional life coach, I have noticed patterns in my clients’ use of language and in their sabotaging self-talk. I have witnessed the impact of negative language on their happiness, and I have taken great pleasure in helping them discover new, empowering language.

Get a copy of Dr. Budd’s book for a more thorough explanation of the impact of language on your life, and/or read this online article that summarizes Dr. Budd’s message. Let’s create visibility (and wellness) one word at a time.

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Check out DevYou for an article I wrote on transforming limiting beliefs into empowering beliefs. It’s a simple and powerful process for addressing beliefs that underlie many of the things that limit us, including issues related to invisibility. The article is 6 Questions That Will Change Your Life.

While you’re there, check out the rest of DevYou. Brian Tanaka, the site’s author, writes about a variety of issues that you may appreciate, including self-development, writing, technology, and productivity. Brian is a freelance writer, programmer and web developer, book author, and an all-around awesome person.

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A few weeks ago, an Invisible Lives reader sent me an email with a question about two of the terms I tend to use interchangeably. He asked:

“Do you make a distinction between invisible and hidden? Hiding who we are (invisible) vs. withholding some aspect of ourselves (hidden).”

Let’s explore it…

Hiding Vs. Invisible

Even though the words evoke a significant overlap in meaning (and I do use them interchangeably), I see them as qualitatively different. Here’s how:

Hiding is actively and consciously concealing some aspect of you. There is a situational quality to hiding. Think of the childhood game “Hide and Seek” and imagine being the hider. In this case, the hider actively conceals his/her body from the seeker, actively trying not to be found. In life, we have all learned how to hide as a defense against real or perceived threats. It’s a natural part of our survival in the word. 

For example, I have actively and consciously concealed from others the fact that I’m gay, especially when I have sensed or felt a threat of some sort. In contrast, I no longer conceal this fact from my friends or family…or the readers of this blog!

Invisibility is the belief that you do not deserve to be seen, that you are deficient or inferior to others, or that you are unworthy to live your biggest, most beautiful life. These beliefs are the forces behind invisibility. They hijack our ability and willingness to be visible. These beliefs quietly and insidiously displace who we are with destructive forces like shame, fear, resentment, and anger. We can even be well-aware of our own invisibility, but it can still sneak out of the shadows when we’re not paying attention.

For example, I recently had a phone conversation with a friend during which I felt very uncomfortable…yet, I continued the conversation without revealing my discomfort or intervening in some other way. During the call, he asked me questions that I blindly (and inappropriately) answered. I was barely aware of the pressure in my chest, the inappropriateness of my responses to his questions, and the conflict that had brewed up inside of me. As soon as I hung up the phone, however, the sensations that I had been holding back rushed over me…and I felt sick to my stomach. I allowed invisibility to hijack me and now I had a mess to clean up. It took me about an hour to work through what had just happened and to figure out how I would resolve the situation. The good news is that I put on my “big girl pants” (sorry - I heard someone say that recently, and I LOVE that phrase) and I called my friend back. In our follow-up conversation, I was uncomfortable, but fully present. I took responsibility for my behavior and we worked together to resolve the experience. I was visible…and it made a difference.

If the distinction between hidden and invisible is still muddled, think of it this way:

• Hiding is situational, active, and conscious; the person hiding can reveal him/herself at any moment.
• Invisibility is pervasive and insidious; it is fueled by a set of negative beliefs that hijack our consciousness; the invisible person struggles with being visible to others and, most often, to him/herself; invisibility is a way of “being” in the world; many of us who are invisible, don’t even know it when it’s happening.

If the distinction is still unclear, let it sit for awhile or don’t even worry about it. Ultimately, what matters most is that I inspire at least one person in this world to see themselves differently and to live consciously, visibly, and be their biggest, brightest, most powerful self.

What is your perspective on the distinction between hidden and invisible? What other words would you like to explore or clarify? I invite you to post your response as a comment or send me an email (my email is on the About Me page).

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I sat on the edge of her bed while she lay there struggling to breathe. Her body had been ravaged by lung cancer, emphysema, and the aftermath of her lung surgery six months earlier. She looked up at me and, without any warning, said in a labored voice, “Paul, I know…I’m dying…it’s okay.”

My family and I had been hiding from her the doctor’s terminal prognosis (we didn’t want to upset her), but she had obviously figured it out (she was NO dummy). With her words of defeat, I burst into an uncontrollable crying jag that cut through my attempt at being a stoic 18–year old boy about to lose his mother. She was suffering, and soon it would be time for her to leave us.

Underneath the unbearable strain of the impending loss of my mother was the presence of another set of emotions – the fear, doubt, and deeply embedded shame associated with my newly discovered certainty of being gay (see Are You a Friend of Dorothy?). I wanted so desperately to share with her that I’m gay; I wanted to be real with her; I wanted to be loved and accepted by her; but I also wanted to respect the fact that she deserved as much peace as possible during the remaining days or weeks of her life.

For better or worse, I chose to hide my personal revelation. A new, parallel sense of mourning emerged – that I would never have the opportunity to come out to her and she would never know (at least in an earthly way) this very important transition that I was making in my life. We were each making our own transitions and we didn’t have the opportunity to share them fully with each other. I was beginning one of my many transitions from invisible to visible (emotionally, psychologically, interpersonally) and she was beginning the transition from visible to invisible (in a physical or bodily sense).

I never did muster up the strength to come out to her that day. My internal story was that she was too sick to deal with such disappointing and controversial news. More so, I deeply feared that she may reject me outright, tell me to get out, or be so heart-broken that she would die on the spot. Whatever the outcome, I imagined it would be something horrible. 

The next morning I headed back to college, hopeful that I would return within a few weeks. I never saw her again. She died five weeks later, the day before Thanksgiving 1983, while I was making the 5–hour drive home from college. The coroner had removed her body from her bed about one hour before I arrived home. Once again, my mom and I were simultaneously in transition – she to her new home and me to my childhood home.

I suspect that if my mom had continued to live long enough for me to come out to her that she would have struggled, at first, but eventually embraced all of me, that she would have made the effort to understand.

What was a time in your life in which you chose to hide a part of yourself? What did you hide? How did it turn out? What opportunity did you abandon as a result of choosing/needing to hide?

My friend and fellow coach, Kelli Cotner, sends her email contact list a Daily Insight. I always look forward to it, because the message is usually brief, simple, and relevant.

Today’s daily insight comes from Eckhart Tolle:

“Be present as the watcher of your mind — of your thoughts and emotions as well as your reactions in various situations.  Be at least as interested in your reactions as in the situation or person that causes you to react.  Notice also how often your attention is in the past or future.  Don’t judge or analyze what you observe.  Watch the thought, feel the emotion, observe the reaction.  Don’t make a personal problem out of them.  You will then feel something more powerful than any of those things that you observe: the still, observing presence itself behind the content of your mind, the silent watcher.”

How does this relate to visibility or invisibility? What does this quote bring up for you? What are you willing to do differently? I invite you to post your thoughts in the Comments area.

At the beginning of episode two of the new TV series, Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles, Sarah says in a voice-over to the TV audience:

“Maybe if you spend your life hiding who you are, you might finally end up fooling yourself.”

I felt like she was speaking to me (and anyone else who can relate to invisibility). With that one statement, she captured the essence of being invisible – fooling others about who we really are and, ultimately, fooling ourselves to the point of believing the deception.

Invisibility is not about maliciously lying to hurt others, but it is about creating deception for the perceived benefit of survival, conflict avoidance, or other anxiety-avoiding reasons. Eventually, though, we hurt ourselves the most and leave a string of casualties behind us in the form of abandoned relationships and lost opportunities.

Sarah Connor represents the strength and conviction that’s needed to be visible to ourselves and to others. My new friend, Dani Rukin, a lightening-bolt of a life coach, beautifully captures the value of living visibly with this Marianne Williamson quote she shares on her web site:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?” Actually, who are you not to be?”

Terminate your invisibility by seeing the “…brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous…” you that was meant to live fully in the world. Embrace your power.

Consider the following:

• How will you terminate your invisibility (or how will you make yourself more visible)?
• Imagine living visibly. What becomes possible in your life?
• What are you missing out on by living invisibly (or not living in a fully visible way)?

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